When was your ah-ha moment?
You know what I’m talking about…that moment when it finally all makes sense.
All of the diets, exercise regimens, intense desire to look and feel better finally click and you are ready to take your weight loss seriously.
…Don’t worry. I don’t think I have had an ah-ha moment either. The thing is, I don’t think you need to have one to be successful. How do I know that? Because I am doing exactly that right now.
I have been dieting for about 22 years; from creating a diet solely based on eating all crackers when I was 9 years old to Slimfast when I was about 12 years old, to Weight Watchers on and off for the rest of my life…I haven’t done it all, but I’ve definitely dabbled in it all and then…I just kinda gave up.
I had tried almost everything and I finally started to embrace the body I had despite decades of low self esteem; I figured I would just continue on my path of self destruction and hope for the best.
Thinking about it, that obviously sounds crazy, but I seriously didn’t know what else to do. I was struggling with daunting depression, most of my close friends moved away and/or didn’t live in the area anymore, I didn’t live close to any family – as terrifying as it is to sound like the opening line of a success story on a weight loss infomercial – I felt like food was the only thing I looked forward to.
Not Ah-Ha, Just Oh-No
I went to a routine doctors appointment where my blood pressure was taken multiple times and I was finally told that I should go to my Primary Care Physician immediately, as my blood pressure was at a level that the doctor would normally send a patient to the Emergency Room for. I remember being terrified and so angry with myself that this was happening. I was 29 years old…what the hell?
Upon going to my Primary Doctor, it was concluded that my high blood pressure was a result of a medication I was on. My best friend actually diagnosed this earlier that day while I was frantically texting her that I was doomed; so in a day, 2 diagnosis were assigned: high blood pressure to me and genius to my best friend.
Okay, probably not rock bottom, but I just couldn’t shake the feeling that this wasn’t solely due to medication. Granted, I am not a doctor (I know, shock and dismay is flooding the internet right now), but, I mean, I was severely overweight, completely inactive and had the eating habits of a 9 year old locked in a fast food restaurant/candy store lacking all adult supervision. I became very worried that high blood pressure was just the start of my problems.
What was next? Also, when was I going to make lifestyle changes that were actually permanent? I felt like a broken record whenever I spoke about weight loss with family and friends because I had been through this song and dance so many times…did they believe this was something I would actually stick to this time? More importantly, did I believe it?
As I’ve mentioned, I didn’t have an ah-ha moment. It wasn’t something where I was driving home from the doctor, the ah-ha moment hit and from then on, I was the picture of good health.
In fact, I wish that’s what happened. My entire life I’ve wished for that turning point that I have heard of other people experiencing. You know, the one where chocolate all of a sudden has no power over you and salads offer the same satisfaction as macaroni and cheese? How did this mindset happen to people? Is there like a class? A webinar? Where can I pick this up?
As a professional dieter, I knew how to be successful in losing weight; that’s the easy part. The hard parts are sticking to the program and/or changes and maintaining the loss. My thoughts were that I didn’t want to just do another diet that consisted of me eating low calorie junk food in order to lose pounds but not become any healthier. Around the time that these thoughts were marinating, some folks at work were successfully finishing up a 30-day program mostly based on the idea of cutting out processed foods, sugar, dairy, etc. Having read some books regarding eating clean and detoxing the body, I thought – “hey, what do I have to lose…” I decided to give it a go for 4 weeks…
Check out how it went here!